5 years later......

I used to dream about the man I would spend the rest of my life with. I would sit in my room and write in my journal begging and pleading with the Lord to bring me my prince charming. I have always been a hopeless romantic. I felt like I waited and waited and waited and waited and it seemed like it was never going to happen and I would never find the man of my dreams. The truth is, I didn't find the man of my dreams because the man in my dreams didn't even compare in any way to the man God had planned for me.
5 years ago this Saturday I walked down an isle and married the most wonderful man I've ever met. I can't believe that we  have spent 5 years together. Time sure flies when your having a good time! I know some people would look at our life and say "what a shame" or "poor Justin and Melissa" because things in our life haven't gone just as we planned. 5 years ago we surely thought we would be parents before this celebration came but God had a different plan. And even though it wasn't "our" plan and wasn't what we wanted, it's worked out pretty darn good. We have had the privilege of building a sound, wonderful marriage with just the two of us. We have had so many great adventures together and have enjoyed every last minute.
Although the desire to be parents is such a deep, incredible passion of ours, one we believe God will grant us when He so chooses, we also know that if we never parent a child our life is still amazing and far better than either of us ever thought possible. I'm so thankful for the last 5 years and I'm looking forward to the rest of our years together. Justin is my sweetest dream and I'm so thankful that God chose me to be his bride. I don't know how I ever deserved such an amazing gift. :) I can feel God's love for me so strongly when I think about it though. He saved his very best for me and I'm so humbled by that. God knew exactly what I needed when I didn't have a clue. And 5 years later......We are more in love than we've ever been, we are happier than we've ever been and we are far more blessed  than we know!

Post op Post!

Well the surgery is over and I'm home resting. Everything went great! They removed 2 cysts and also my bowels were glued to something else so she fixed that. They didn't get to do the ovarian drilling bc she was afraid my bowel would stick to them. She didn't mention any endometriosis to Justin but she did say adhesions which is the same from what I've read. But I'll ask her when she calls me Monday. I'm a little bummed we couldn't do the drilling. This was the main reason for the surgery.
Anyhow, right now I'm feeling great! I'm not sore at all but I know that could change tomorrow! :) anyways just wanted to give an update. Here are the pics if anyone is interested!

Pre op post!

Friday is the big day......surgery! I am somewhat nervous but I know I'll be in good hands. My doctor is awesome! She spent 45 minutes with me at my pre op appt. Answering every single question I had. Now I have to say that the surgery itself doesn't bother me too bad. I've had several friends that have had this exact surgery and have all lived to tell about it. :) However being put to sleep is the part that's making me nervous! My dr. Told me my throat would be sore from the breathing tube......wait, WHAT!? A breathing tube!? She said it's because they will fill my belly with gas that could make it hard for me to breath. This will just ensure that I breath correctly.
Also on that visit they drew blood. In Thursday I get a call from the dr. Asking me to come in for more blood work. She said my white blood count was elevated to 17.2. (The normal range is 4 to 10) This scared me a little but on Monday when they called and said it had increased again I really freaked! It jumped to 18.2 this time. So what do I do? The one thing I know NOT to do....I goggled it. So then I thought I could have leukemia. Stupid I know but that is just what I do. But I went to my regular dr. And it turns out I just had a viral infection and all is back to normal.
So this surgery will do a few different things. First they are going to remove a pesky cyst that has hung around for several years now. Also they are going to check for and remove any endometriosis. My dr. thinks I could possibly have some and this could be keeping me from getting pregnant. They are also going to do ovarian drilling which to my best understanding is where they drill out the callused parts of my ovaries caused by the PCOS. Most women will ovulate in their own for 6 to 12 months after this procedure. That will be a miracle for me since I have only ovulated on my own maybe 5 times in the last 10 years. She said it should take about 2 1/2 hrs. (Surgery is at noon)
I know that the Lord has his hand in this. I have been quoting and praying scripture over myself and this surgery this week. I know that I dwell in the secret place of the almighty and he will protect me. Please if you read this will you say a prayer of peace for me.
I will post on facebook as soon as I am feeling ok and not loopy. :) I appreciate your prayers not just for this but also for the past few years as we've tried so desperately to start our family. We look forward to the future and our miracle babies whose names and faces the Lord already knows.